Saturday, May 8, 2010

Happy Mother's Day!!

To All Mothers

To the Mother who has no children,

But yearns to hold a baby tight,

We thank her for her growing love,

And pray for a future so bright.

To the mother who gave her baby up,

Because it was for the best,

We thank her for the gift of life,

And for her loving unselfishness.

To the Mother who has lost a child,

And struggles to understand,

We thank her for her faith in God,

Knowing that He is holding her

young one’s hand.

To the Mother who continues to show us,

That she is “always right”,

We thank her for her wisdom,

And for the kisses and hugs so tight.

To the Mother with grown children

Who is living in an empty nest,

We thank her for her outstretched arms,

And generations that have been blessed.

To the Mother who is fighting for her life,

To get through another day,

We thank her for her courage and strength,

And we pray for a cure before it is too late.

To the mother who has forgotten,

Because her memory has gone astray,

We thank her for holding our hand,

As we deal with the loss and the pain.

To the Mother who has her angel’s wings,

And is looking down from above,

We thank her for the life she led,

And memories that are full of love.

To all the Mothers out there,

You make this world a better place,

We thank you for who you are,

And the smiles you put on our face.

Happy Mother’s Day,

Love Julie and John

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Update

So, I'm done feeling sorry for myself and ready to be thankful for what I do have. I ended up not having a D&C and miscarried naturally. I had a wonderful crazy busy weekend with my girlfriends from college- I miss them already. AND we became an aunt and uncle (I know again!!) to Mikayla Nichole!!! Congrats Michelle and Chris. 3 wonderful girls!

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

To Post or not to Post?

So, I have been struggling with all kinds of emotions and I have decided that in order to heal I need to communicate my feelings. Why the blog and not a journal? Not sure. Maybe this will help someone out there that needs help more than me. And maybe I won't feel so alone. You never see someone on Facebook post "Second miscarriage-this sucks" or "I hate blighted ovums".

It's my second pregnancy (I miscarried at 9 weeks on Dec. 2nd) and I'm 10 weeks along and waiting... and waiting to miscarry yet again. I went in for a sonogram 2 weeks ago and there wasn't a heartbeat and we could only see a black sac. I had my levels checked- I went from 3,000 to 20,000. Which isn't normal due to what the sonogram showed. I went in again last week and it was confirmed again that nothing had changed. Was told that this miscarry will be a blighted ovum. If nothing changes then I will have to have a D&C on Friday. Based on how I feel I'm pretty sure something will happen by Friday.

I ask myself why me? My family has no problems with having children (I don't even need to mention John's side). Should I have not of waited until we were ready? Am I getting punished for something I did? How many times will I have to go thru the pain? I ask myself these questions and I know there isn't any answers. All I can do is pray and have others pray for us.

Love, Julie

"For I know the plans I have you says the Lord, they are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope". ~Jeremiah 29:11~

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Time Flys

Wow! Where has the time gone? It's been awhile since I've last posted anything. We had gone to Iowa for the funeral and back to Iowa for John's dad's 73rd Birthday- had a great time with John's family and my mom. We are trying to buy a different car right now and I hate it. To jog your memory we have been borrowing my dad's truck since beginning of December and it's time we think about returning it. I hate car shopping with a passion but we need to do it sooner than later. I went into 2 dealerships today during my lunch break. Yes, just 2 and I'm done. It sucks all my energy out of me. Just thinking of the money we will spend makes me want to get puke.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Sad News

Our friend, Brian Boka passed away yesterday. Sudden. Shocked. Is all I can say. John and Brian met at Simpson College and were great friends throughout the years. Brian was in our wedding and John in his. Wendy, his wife is in our prayers along with his family (Jeremy, Steve and Diane).
Brian was hard not to forget- 6'6" tall with red hair, he was always the center of attention. He could always tell a story and get you to buy into whatever he tried to talk you into. I'm sure John could vouch for that. We will miss him greatly and always think of him often.

Love you Brian! You will be missed!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Happy New Year





Pictures from New Years Eve @ Trezo Mare restaurant in Briarcliff Village - Jeff & Rebeca, Sarah & JD, and Susie & Greg Green. Had a great time!!!

'A' is for Addy & 'C' is for Coach


Funny story. Last night John and I went over to Sarah and JD's to hang out since we haven't seen them forever (it had been a week). Addy was going thru my handbag and she was wanting me to tell her everything that was in there - sunglasses (or known as Nockies), lip gloss, etc. Later that night she got into Sarah's handbag and pulled out her wallet and exclaimed, "You and Mommie have matching stuff!!!" I then quized her on Coach and would say.... What's the best handbag out there?" Addie would reply "COACH!!!!" Sarah's glare was priceless.